letter 2 you:
i have always been aware of an image of multiplicity of selves. my initial concept of humans around me was that all of them were coordinate[s|d] into a WHOLE. whereas i was made of a multitude of selves of fragments. i know i was upset as a child to discover that we had only one life. it seems to me that i wanted to compensate for this. or perhaps it seems as this when one follows all of one's impulses and they spiral in different directions.
when i was happy - always at the beginning of a love. euphoric. i felt i was gifted for living many lifes fully.
passion gives me moments of wholeness
you have built a false concept of wholeness under the pressure of an artificial unity.
yet i explode and fly in all directions.
some day i may be reassembled as one. you shall never know. you cannot posses without loving.
- but listen i do not speak well. i wish to write to you. - why +? - because i consider you the last life form on this planeta. - your eyes seem to be expecting miracles. - will you perform them +?
nn. multiple personalities. multiple lives born of an extravagant hunger.
no beauty. no voice. no presence. indifference to human order. human limitations + restrictions. i am full of energy. i write endless letters endlessly. the heat and fervor of story telling.
you are the full box. i am the empty box.
who wants the ideas. the fantasies. the content if the box is beautiful + inspiring.
a world full of ideas. fantasies. content. is not a full world.
the 1st birth is often a failure.
letter 2 you:
you mystify me.
an - slightly fragmented.
nn. there is the 2nd tasting. the delayed reaction. the world is a carnival.
the question is : is everyone else like me
pre.konssept!n meeTz ver!f1kat!n.
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